Learning journal blog/ Personal Development Plan 2

othr1- summative

This is my first Time having to create a Dissertation proposal, as a result I am unsure of whether or not I have created an effective one or have missed intentions entirely but never the less I am proud of writing something that not only suggests logical statements but also relates to that of me and shows off both who and what I am as a designer and a student.

As the initial year started, term 1 was something I had not yet experienced, something that I could go into greater detail with and that was “society”, a term which often applies to my work but is something that I do not explore as much as other terms, while the first term was exploring the notion of monsters and how society perceives them, by changing the idea of a monster to the idea of art or pieces then the effect is still the same. It is disliked by society and when it challenges what they think they know it receives negative connotations, this is something that I wish to use towards my work in the future, questionable art that provokes and evokes a response.

My book project was that of a “never ending book”,  which had no start and no ending and no instructions, it was a nightmare for people to understand how to use it but they could not resist still trying, even after minutes of failing. This inability to stop is something that I would like to progress with and the idea of interaction being a core concept of a book is something that I feel is often lost or merely applied to younger generations in books but should instead be progressed with even past that of adult stage and especially in that of teenagers where interaction is still the primary source of learning.

My other project, the “museum” project received negative feedback, this may be due to the amount of ideas I was trying to apply to it or the difficulty in expressing what it was i was trying to convey. Aside from this when the idea was shown to people individually then they appreciated and understood the context of what it was I was conveying and they started to relate more and interact more, the idea of “A museum for one” was something I had not experimented with, but my museum had a physicality aspect which most Graphic museums do not, this is why I felt it was one of the more better museums as power was giving back to the people, a “propaganda” museum if you will, these ideas and feedback are ones that I had not truly attempted until it was pointed out to me and would work well as a career path as both interaction and  physicality are something I wish to pursue further and in greater depth.

The most impactful thing I could have done this year in relation to my proposal and general studies is that of the “fan sharpener”, while it is not a piece I have made it has been the basis for my work and is a very important factor when creating my proposal, it contains all the basics of the terms I wish to apply as well as the term “Affordance”, the idea that an object or piece has an alternate way of doing something, it can be aesthetically pleasing but also be interactive, there is often a rule of thumb where one concept takes over the other but in rare circumstances the negative takes precedence or even that they tie. I hope that as time progresses I will be able to apply these skills and concepts to my works and create something that purely reflects who I am but also what I could be and revolutionize graphics to some extent.

Looking back to last year and how everything had to be touched and senses were my priority to now the main priority being touch, I am not surprised I have gone this way. I am surprised however that it hasn’t become the sole idea towards my work and applied to every brief, but then I feel that by picking and choosing I will be able to see what works well and what doesn’t, an idea can’t be applied every time and knowing my limitations and restrictions will only help support my key concepts and reinforce my knowledge and applications. I am also hopeful for what my work will look like come next year and I have seen that as time has progressed I have started to take more appreciation and care into my work, field still appears to be a concept area but next year with the exhibition I feel like I will show off my skills and abilities as a designer, hopefully these will be seen and appreciated by others and they will be able to see both who and what I am.

This proposal has made me dislike it, not because it is difficult or annoying but because I now wish to be able to create my dissertation now and be able to showcase my results and my findings off as well as make people think as to what could be and by what currently is, by making people think we can see what they truly think of something when it is questioned, an idea I take with me throughout both my course and the world and would like to see at the very heart of everything that I attempt to do. This may eventually change and I am pleased with that because I cannot predict who or what I am to be in the future, my core concepts may change and I may find new terms that reinforce who I am as a designer and a student. But these are the things I look up to and am hopeful for, ideas that change me as much as I wish to change the world, perhaps with time I may be able to do so or perhaps it may be a dream, who can know?

Constellation week 3

17  october- week 3

 

psychological dissolution and liminality

 

body= dissolving forms

-coming apart

-liminal body, defying categoies- abnormal

-morphing

 

dissolving forms into the mind- psycholigcal

-gender roles

 

uncanny

 

spurs of fighting- de ja vue

-intellectual uncertainty- brain not giving the right answer

 

applies to everything- uncanny sensations-music a  factor-destablizes what your saying and seeing

 

doubt as to whether- possible relevance to domain- life to the lifeless

death,dead- dissolving both bodies and space

 

disturbs any- liminality= inbetweeness

 

to make strange- confuse and alter the perception of humans

 

liminality, rational phenomenon= don’t go to gothic literature (taboo) and irrational

 

destablizes victorian ideas and ideals due to gothic literature and defy rational thought

superstitious is uncanny

 

dracula for good reference

delerium- can penetrate the body but also the mind

renfield not easily defined (young dracula for modern reference)

divides him in between -“vast and shadowy borderland”

our bodies invade spaces.

 

The body is not categorized or certain in gothic literature

 

Dr Jekyll womb monster

 

Werewolf- gives birth to itself

 

Dr Jekyll and mr hyde, feminine? symbolism

 

Watch silence of the lambs.

 

Monsters are transgender to an extent

 

Ghosts are generally considered feminine

 

Home= womb

 

Hysteria-losing the plot

 

Woman unstable due to their periods/ cannot conform/ be controlled by society

 

Constellation week 2

Dark matter- corporeal dissolution- 10 october week 2

Transgressing boundaries- going beyond, non- conformative, body and mind.

The body is not perfect and it deteriorates

Metamorphic- it changes shape

Undifferentiated- can’t be easily defined or defined at all

Corporeality- flesh, blood, physical

The mind and body can be penetrated

Destabaliation of fixed boundary- religion now loses power which creates fear

Can’t tell what it is? Think it is human but not be

May not be flesh but has a material form

Naked= vulnerability= foetus/ babies

Birth and natural birth refer back to foetal positioning

Morph is a reminder of otherness.

Mise-en-scene= everything within the scene- facial expression, lighting, body pose, costume

Constellation week 1

Gothic matters- identifying a Gothic sensibility- week 1- October 3rd

 

create the final constellation work as you progress through each week

 

-4000 word text and analysis

-1000 word learning journal

 

analysis of 2 images of your choosing

– fit into themes and concept

-can be still or moving images

-movie poster, video, tv series, etc.

-even own practice can be allowed

 

-certainty results in a grey area-not easily defined

-discourse theme, degeneration theme,

-dissolution coming apart

-trying to g=break the rules and defy the social norm.

– Dracula morphs and destabilizes and is unstable, has multiple forms and characters of which it switches between.

 

-tackling of taboo in society and the social norm.

-breakdown of morals and moral values

-things that make you question humanity and morality

-transgresses boundaries and reveals the hidden

 

-shadow mysterious form, blank?

-shadow creates a physical experience

 

ghost liminal, no flesh

zombie is physical

 

Gothic literature partial bodies and degeneration

 

pin-de-seicle= end of the century

 

sid (toy story)= Dr Frankenstein, rebuilds a body

 

Gothic character has a Gothic sensibility

not in a gothic novel but should be

 

deterioration is part of a gothic sensilbiltiy

 

look up great expectations

 

darkness conveyed visually and thematically

disturbs the borders of knowing

everything in a gothic text has notings of light and dark

(look for relevant metaphors)

What does it make you feel?

Dominance+ ambivalence= “defying a cloudy Victorian picture of the word”

Seven?- horror film, artistic and creative

look up Vincent price

duplicity, alter-ego, Duality

liminal world, people who are dead come back to life

skeletal figures + distortion- disturbance+ ambivalence

collapsing of boundaries- insanity/ hysteria

editing creates a much faster pace- destabilisation